Diet of worms

For the past week or so, I have been trying to watch what I eat. I joined a website called Spark People in order to monitor my progress. It has been difficult given that:

a) Most of my food is weird and or homecooked
b) I am not home most of the time
c) I am in panic mode for the GRE's.

I also wanted to monitor my fitness, given that I now find myself with time to exercise about two times a week and am rarely motivated to do it. This is bad. I am kind of pinning it on the change of seasons right now. The track is flooded, along with the Stevens Creek Trail, and overall I feel kind of mopey and ill for whatever reason (read: Panic Mode). I know everything will be okay, but in order to get my mojo flowing again, I probably need to hit the gym more often and try to run at least three times a week. I also need to stop eating crap. Not that I have been at home, but work, Halloween, and the bitter bitter cold are making me love the junk food just a little bit more.

My friend Jon wrote an entry a few days ago about how he had the motivation, but did not make the effort to do things because he lacked the discipline. It struck a chord with me because this is clearly where I am right now. I am not disciplined enough to meet the challenges that are facing me with regards to my future and most importantly my health. What do I do to increase my discipline? I know depriving myself of the things I like will not amount to any good, but sometimes you have to take away some pleasure temporarily to make things a little better for yourself. I should make a list, but in the meantime self-reflection in the form of narcissism is always a productive measure.